The last two weeks, I’ve been thinking a lot about my life, the choices I’ve made and why everything has come together as it has. A conversation a week ago drove it all home: showed me that all the events I’ve lived, all the people I’ve come into contact with and the relationships that have shaped me, even those that hurt and caused lingering pain, have all been to teach me to seek out and recognize who and what I truly am.
For so many years, I dwelled on the idea that I had to give something to other people in order to deserve their love. And my relationships and interactions mirrored this belief and I brought in experience after experience that underscored it. I lived it with my parents, with my husband, in my jobs and in interaction after interaction.
And time after time, I betrayed myself, chose not to see the beautiful self, the kindness and joy that IS me and instead focused on others’ interpretations, based on their experiences. As one of my teachers once said, I was confusing the finger pointing at the moon with the moon itself. But now I can see the moon all on my own, and it is beautiful. Those projections were never me, and I now know that. I never needed others’ validation, and if those around me make me feel smaller, then I do not need to associate with them. More than that, those interactions show me that I have not been valuing myself and seeing my worth.
This is what all the great mystics and gurus throughout the ages have been telling us, and it is truly simple. Once we see it, we almost wonder ow we could have overlooked it. Our power lies within each of us, no matter the circumstances of our birth, the situation of our lives. No one has power over another unless we in our hearts relinquish it. And even if, in our confusion, we give our power away, time and again, as I have done throughout the decades of my lifetime, we can still “redeem” it and take our power back at any moment, when we choose to recognize the simple fact that I AM ENOUGH.
We, each of us, is our greatest treasure. Never let anyone belittle you, make you feel anything less than the resplendent being that you are. You are holy, and you are a gift. Be that gift to yourself. Share your gifts with the world around you. Invite in experiences that mirror your knowledge of yourself as powerful and beautiful beyond measure. For you are.
Author: mprovorny
Honest Spirituality. 